For whom the bell tolls – A word for Ash Wednesday

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“Remember that you are dust, and to dust you shall return.” That’s the somber reminder of Ash Wednesday.

“To dust you shall return” wasn’t the original intention for humanity, of course. At the crowning moment of creation, “God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.”[note]Gen 2:7 –– special note: This is not meant in any way to bias genders. The woman’s creation is every bit as much a crowning moment (some have argued more). But I’m talking about dust here…[/note] God only speaks those second words––“to dust you shall return”––as he later details the consequences of the man’s sin. The wages of sin is death…

At Ash Wednesday, and then throughout these forty days of Lent, we’re invited to take special account of our mortality and sinfulness. It’s a season of fasting. We fast when we recognize that things are not right. Throughout the Scriptures, people fast when they’re in danger, afraid, grieving, or have recognized their sinfulness.

John Donne’s famous piece below is fitting for the season. He wrote this in 1623 while recovering from a serious illness. The bell he refers to is a funeral bell.

Donne’s work reminds of two things:

  1. We may have judged our own state better than it is––“Perchance he for whom this bell tolls may be so ill as that he knows not it tolls for him.”[note]Donne wrote before gender-inclusive language. I’m sure he would have written more inclusively had he written this today.[/note]
  2. Our lives are all wrapped up in each other. No one is an island. This is what Donne means when he says we need not ask for whom the bell tolls, “it tolls for thee.”––“Any man’s death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.

I had to read this slowly and carefully to understand and appreciate. It was worth the effort…

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From Devotions upon Emergent Occasions, Meditation #17 by John Donne

Perchance he for whom this bell tolls may be so ill as that he knows not it tolls for him. And perchance I may think myself so much better than I am, as that they who are about me, and see my state, may have caused it to toll for me, and I know not that. The church is catholic, universal, so are all her actions; all that she does, belongs to all. When she baptizes a child, that action concerns me; for that child is thereby connected to that head which is my head too, and ingrafted into that body, whereof I am a member. And when she buries a man, that action concerns me; all mankind is of one author, and is one volume; when one man dies, one chapter is not torn out of the book, but translated into a better language; and every chapter must be so translated; God employs several translators; some pieces are translated by age, some by sickness, some by war, some by justice; but God’s hand is in every translation, and his hand shall bind up all our scattered leaves again, for that library where every book shall lie open to one another; as therefore the bell that rings to a sermon, calls not upon the preacher only, but upon the congregation to come; so this bell calls us all: but how much more me, who am brought so near the door by this sickness.

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No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as if a manor of thy friend’s or of thine own were; any man’s death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.

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Who’s your pastor?

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Several years ago, I received an email from a friend that included this:

I am applying for a  ________  position. May I put you down as a minister reference? I still don’t know any ministers at  ________  who could give me one since the church is so big.

A part of my reply:

I’ll be happy to be a reference. What a perfect position for you! I’ll say lots of good things.

I hope this isn’t overstepping, but I wanted to say this also… I hope you don’t need me for a minister reference in the future. You are so gifted and also have so many places where you could grow if a pastor were investing in you. It’s upsetting to me to know that you’re in a place where you’re not known. To me, that means you’re being under-utilized and under-challenged.

If you just need to take initiative, I hope you’ll do that to find someone at _______ that you can call your pastor. If that’s not a possibility there, I hope you’ll find a place where it is. You have too many gifts and too much space to grow to be without a pastor.

What this is not about:

1) Church size – You can find several large churches that do a great job of connecting pastors to individuals. You can find several small churches that don’t. On the whole, it’s easier to remain anonymous at a large church. You’ll need to take more initiative and so will the church. But size isn’t the only factor here.

2) A paycheck – When I ask who your pastor is, I’m not concerned about a paycheck. That is, your pastor doesn’t have to be on staff at the church. They may be a banker or nurse. But they’re a part of your local church community and they’re your pastor.

What this is about:

1) Pastoral discernment – Who is the person in your life that can see the forest when you have your face pressed up against a tree? The person with spiritual discernment?

Note: This isn’t just for beginners. The person most mature in her faith still needs a pastor, just like Roger Federer still needs a coach.

2) Pastoral authority – That’s an ugly term in our independent society. But it’s needed. We love ourselves too much. If we want to make hard choices, we need to give someone the authority to suggest and prescribe them. On our own, we choose our own (easier) way.

Who has the authority to ask you uncomfortable questions and give you uncomfortable prescriptions?

3) Soul care – A pastor cares for your soul. (S)he works with you toward healing, wholeness, and hope in places of brokenness. She guides you in reestablishing broken relationships. When restoration is impossible or unlikely, she helps you sustain. She directs you toward growth and wise choices.

In a time of crisis, who is the pastor that will care for your soul? In the places where you need guidance or encouragement, or even a loving rebuke, who can offer it?

4) Someone in your local congregation – You may list several pastors. They may be scattered all over the place. That’s great! But you need to have a pastor to you in your local congregation. Each local congregation is a unique little body of Christ. It’s not just a venue to sing some songs and hear a sermon. You’re going through something special together as a community. You need a pastor within that community.

When you come to some of those most special occasions –– a wedding, a funeral, a baptism –– who will be there with you? Is it someone who knows you?

Who’s your pastor?

On Saturday, I attended a memorial service for David Sparks. It was packed with people who had called David their pastor. These people’s lives are different today because of the ways that David invested in them. He encouraged people to use their gifts and do more than they had done before. He was there for them when they had a crisis or failed or screwed up.

Who’s investing in you like that?

I’ve been formed a lot by several people who couldn’t pick me out of a lineup (e.g. Rob Bell) or who died long before I was born (e.g. John Wesley and Augustine). These have been important teachers for me, and I appreciate them for that.But they weren’t my pastors. They haven’t known me, been there when I needed someone most, or sat across a table to say something I needed to hear. They haven’t been able to share a personal word of challenge or encouragement.

So I’m thankful for the people who have taken the time to know me and invest in me. I’m not where I am today without the pastors in my life:

  • David Sparks calling, texting, and meeting with me to give words of encouragement.
  • Jerry Ernst teaching me to be a Christian leader.
  • Aaron Mansfield not letting me off easy.
  • Derek Robinette encouraging often and rebuking when necessary.
  • Paul Brunstetter believing in me before I believed in myself.
  • Todd Nelson offering words of wisdom and companionship.
  • Mike Powers giving me space to discern calling.
  • Paul and Sylvia Cummings teaching me to pray.

That’s far from an exhaustive list. To those many pastors in my life not listed above, thank you…

A different kind of resolution

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For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified.
– 1 Corinthians 2:2

What does it mean to know nothing except Jesus Christ and him crucified?

That resolution comes from the Apostle Paul, who wrote in another letter: “I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.”[1. Philippians 3:10-11]

I’ve resolved to floss more this next year, and eat more vegetables. Good things to do. These certainly aren’t things I need to neglect for the sake of knowing Christ.

But what if my primary resolution were to know nothing except Jesus Christ and him crucified?

What does it mean to know Christ, the power of his resurrection, participation in his sufferings?
It surely means inward transformation for a godly life.[1. 2 Peter 1:3]
And it’s consistently linked with bold testimony and suffering for the gospel.[1. 2 Timothy 1:7-8]

If I’m honest, I haven’t been bold enough in my testimony to know if it would lead to suffering for the gospel. That confession troubles me. More than flossing or eating vegetables in 2015 (though I hope to do both), I want to conclude the next year without the sense that I’ve been too timid in my testimony about Jesus Christ and him crucified.

The Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. Oh, that I would have a greater measure of that Spirit in 2015.

A few applicable links as we move into the New Year:

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